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Publication Passion

Passion flower
Passion flower

I had a different post written for today, but then decided the topic wasn’t really what was on my mind. What I really want to talk about is passion. Actually, I want to talk about two related passions. The first is the passion for writing. Most of you who read this blog share that one. Some of you participated in my recent survey. One of the questions was whether you feel you were born to write. Some of you said yes. My answer was no.

I’ve always made up stories to amuse myself, but I didn’t feel a compulsion to write many of them down until ten years ago. I wasn’t sure what changed. I was older and had more life experience? My children were grown and I had more free time? I had cycled out of one obsession and needed a new one? Whatever the cause, suddenly I felt a compulsion to write. The more I wrote, the more passionate I became about writing.

But I don’t think the world needs to read my stories. I don’t believe any of my books will ever be considered great literature. I won’t die if I can’t write; I’ll just go back to keeping the stories in my head.

For nine years, even though I loved writing and believed I was good at it, I never sought publication. Now, in the last year, I’ve developed the passion for publication. I want to be published. I really want to be published. Not for money, though of course a little monetary profit would be a definite plus, but I’ve researched enough to know that as a new author, I can expect to make very little money.

What I want … what I need is validation. Here’s the problem: I feel foolish admitting that.

Why should I need validation from the powers that be? I’ve spent my whole as a very private person. In that life, I’m loved and respected. I’m secure in that life. So why open myself up to public judgment? I joke about it, but I have no illusions that I’m writing the next BIG novel. My name will not become a “household word.” Yet, I push forward. This passion mystifies me, yet I can’t deny it.

Do you have the publication passion? Do you know why?

26 thoughts on “Publication Passion”

  1. I have a story I want to share. Actually, I wanted the story already written so I could read it, but nobody would step up to the plate.

    If it were just publication I seek, I would focus on the short stories and essays for magazine publication. I’m not a big reader of short stories. So it boils down to the old saying of write the book you want to read. So I am and I want the validation that goes with it.

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    1. I would want to read my book, and I’m not that weird, so I have to think others would, too. 🙂 Now we just have to convince an agent of that … and then, of course, our agents need to convince publishers. And on we go …

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  2. On my new family calendar there is a quote:

    ” L’ennui avec l’experience, c’est quelle n’est pas sanctionnee par des diplomes.” Doug Larson.

    my translation.: the annoying thing about experience is that it is not validated by a diploma.

    When I read this I thought how well it applies to writing.

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  3. You already know I have publication passion. It’s for the same reason you mentioned–validation. A lot of it’s so that the people around me will take my passion more seriously. If I tell people I write, the first thing they ask is, ‘oh, what do you have published?’ To them, writing means something in a bookstore, not just something in my computer. But I would be lying if I said it was just for others, because I would love to see my work in print too.

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    1. Oh, Kasie, I soooo know what you mean. I feel like my husband, who’s really very supportive, is watching the clutter pile up and wondering if it’s worth it. Or maybe that’s my guilt. I think I need to feel it’s worth it and I don’t think I can until the powers that be declare it so by publishing my writing.

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  4. i want to reach people. i don’t know why, i just do. i want them to know they’re not alone and i believe i was given the experiences and a voice to tell them. publication would be awesome. truly a dream. for every good reason i can think of.

    i’m just now barely beginning to even look into it.

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    1. I don’t feel I’m writing anything that would help anyone … except to escape for a little while. But I wish you good luck in your quest for publication, Mary.

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  5. A book I ghost wrote was published last year. At first, that depressed me terribly — why could I write well enough to get someone else published, but not get myself published? But when I saw my name on the acknowledgement page (page 3, in case you’re looking), I have to admit it was a real thrill.

    I know my writing is better than a lot of what gets published. I know it’s not as good as many others. I still want my name on the spine. I’m visualizing my book on the shelf at Border’s right now — or better yet, my favorite indie bookstore. Alphabetically, our last names aren’t that far apart. Maybe my book will wave to your book in the library.

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