You never know what you’ll find when you clean house. I have now made it most of the way around my “workroom.” This is where I write, do genealogy research, make jewelry, draw, and do whatever else requires a big table or a computer. Every inch of this room is occupied. Also in this room are two deep closets crammed with … well, a lot of stuff. I’ve now cleaned and organized those two closets.
I found a dozen errant beads that had rolled off my workbench and under the doors. I found the pack of mechanical pencils that I knew I’d bought but never opened. And I found a bag of a ten or so new bottles of craft paint that had been “lost” inside the bag of felt pieces. But the best find was in a box in the office supply closet. I found old computer disks.
On two of the disks, I found some of my old writing files, and I’m working up the nerve to open them. Others are files from the first two online critique groups I belonged to in 2000. As soon as I saw the writers’ names, I remembered the plots of the books they were working on at the time. I did some research and found out that, of the three writers I worked most closely with in those groups, two of them have been published and the third mentors other published writers.
So, of course, I asked myself where I might be now, if I hadn’t let life get the better of me. Just as quickly, I let that go. I reminded myself that I believe all things happen for a reason. I’m where I’m supposed to be right now.
I was a different person then. I hadn’t read some of the books I needed to read. I hadn’t met some of the people I needed to know. I hadn’t experienced some of the things I needed to to enable me to write what I can write now. So I’ll let go my envy and I’ll practice patience. My time will come.
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I love that you found — tucked between those computer disks — such strong self-awareness to understand what needed to happen in those intervening years, to get you where you are now. You have inspired me today!
Thank you for visiting, Jane, and taking the time to leave a comment. It’s always satisfying to hear that I’ve inspired someone. I am thankful for the times that I can stand back and see things clearly. Those moments inspire me to keep plugging away in the dark or frustrating times.
Yes, letting go is hard. Life so easily pushes in. You are well on your way though, so don’t discount that:)
Christina, nice to see you “out and about”! 🙂 Yep, not looking back, just moving forward.