Advice, Tips, Writing

Perhaps I am a loaf of bread

“I am raining down in pieces. I am scattering like light.”

That quote is from Suzanne Vega’s song “Small Blue Thing” which I rediscovered while sorting my CDs. And it perfectly describes my current state of mind. I don’t seem to be able to concentrate on anything. The least thing distracts me. I am scattered in pieces.

bread This is a state of emptiness, I think. A time to refill, to soak in, to expand and solidify. This feeling reminds me of a familiar process. Usually, three times a week, I make bread. I mix the flours, water, salt, yeast, and oil and I knead it, let it rise, punch it down, let it rise again, form it into a loaf, let it rise once more, and then bake. When that loaf is eaten, I start the process over.

You can try to hurry the bread-making process—knead it less, skip a rising—but you won’t get the beautiful loaf you expect. Right now, I am scattered. I am in the ingredients stage. I need to be patient and let the “magic” happen.

20 thoughts on “Perhaps I am a loaf of bread”

  1. I go through this about once a month. It’s not specifically related to writing, but impacts it greatly. I feel as if I’m a snake trying to shed its skin – I’m writhing in discomfort. Arrgh.

    But your post reminds me (because I’m going through it at this moment – I couldn’t write my poem yesterday) that it will pass. Thank you.

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    1. You’re welcome. I’m trying not to be impatient, but right now, as the sun is sinking low, the world outside my window has turned golden, and yet all I can think of is, my feet are cold. I do so desire a rush of excellent words.

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  2. I love homemade bread. I’m in the “must not rush” phase too. I’ve learned something about this industry in general: That is their theme. “Must not rush”. I think it’s their way of making sure we’re sane before they publish us. If we can survive this process without pulling our hair out, they reward us. 🙂

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  3. I love this: This is a state of emptiness, I think. A time to refill, to soak in, to expand and solidify.

    I, too, am in a fairly constant state of distraction. When I read that line, my whole body relaxed. It’s a much better way to look at it than, “j, seriously, someone needs to save you from yourself.”

    Patience. Okay… (thanks!)

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    1. I’m happy you found something worthwhile in the post. From time to time–okay, nearly every day–I need to remind myself of the steps in the process. I just miss waking up every morning excited to work on my novel.

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