I had started writing a post on a completely different topic for today, but last night I had a dream. Yesterday, I confessed to someone that my faith in my writing ability has waned. In my dream, a person in my life who is hypercritical of me said something that hurt my feelings. I hid my reaction and walked casually out of the room. But then, I continued on out the back door.
With a heavy heart and fighting back tears, I walked down the street toward my house. I entered the house next door to mine instead. I remember thinking that it was fine to do this, I could live there and no one would mind. Maybe no one would even notice. When I entered the empty house, I knew instantly I wouldn’t be happy there, but felt trapped by my decision.
Then, the person in my life who has a most generous heart and always makes me feel better about myself came to the door, smiling at me through the glass. Even though I had triple-locked the door, she easily opened it, and I knew that I was free to leave.
Once again, my subconscious had spoken to a captive audience. It told me to quit listening to that inner critic that locks me into a substitute self. A self that believes she can’t write. A self that would be unhappy if she didn’t write. So today, I’m going to smile lovingly at myself and move back into my own house. There are words to be written.
Do you ever take up residence in the wrong house?
18 thoughts on “Are you in the wrong house?”
It’s time to stop that, Darc. Go back to your own house.
I think it’s so cool that you can interpret your dreams. They’re so vivid and full of meaning. I’m glad this one drove you to become less critical of yourself. I know it’s not always easy to do, but you definitely have the right attitude.
I hope you had a wonderful holiday season.
Don’t you think it’s kind of pathetic that I communicate best with myself through dreams, though? 😕
I know you had a long holiday season, hope it was a good one and you’re back to normal life now.
ABSO-FREAKING-LUTELY loved this post.
oh man. goosebumps.
Hmmmm … sure it’s not just the cold spell you’re having back there?