In a bit I’m going to share with you a post I wrote almost two years ago. I titled it “Write what you LOVE!” I wrote that post two months after The Brevity of Roses came out. I mentioned I’d starting writing a new novel, which became An Illusion of Trust. It’s now just about two months since Illusion was published and I’m in a “somber, angst-ridden” place again.
Partly that angst is expressed in working on this and that and the other, waiting for a project to spark my passion. Apparently, I’ll fall off the cliff after every novel I publish, but maybe the next time I’ll remember that’s normal for me and just ignore it. For now, I’m still anxious to experience that rush of being carried away with words. I’m hungry for that love of writing. Please, let me be “off and running again” soon.
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Yesterday, I started writing a somber, angst-ridden post. I guess the title and the hearts are clues this is not that post. My last post was a bit of a downer. Some of your comments led me to search my soul, question my Muse, and whine to some friends. Oh yeah, I can be a real joy.
The conclusion? I’d stopped writing for the sheer love of writing and started writing with the mindset of production. My work had ceased to be a creative expression and become merely a commercial product. I’d tried to force it. I worked on four different books. But ultimately, I ground to a halt.
Then a friend asked me to read the blurb for her next book, and the wheels started turning. Her blurb reminded me of one of my book ideas. I’d written up some notes and a couple of opening paragraphs. I looked for the file. It took me two hours because I couldn’t remember what I’d named the file, plus I thought I’d started it last year. When I finally found the right file, it had a nondescript name and was dated ’09.
I read what I’d worked up and realized the original idea wouldn’t quite work … but then … oh, then the floodgates opened! I could change this. I could tweak that. And—Oh!—what if this happened? I got so excited that I couldn’t write fast enough and had to go back to the computer to type.
I had doubts. “Is this crazy?” I asked myself. “Can I do this in my “genre”? “Could this be a good story?” I emailed a friend. She wrote back, “I think it would be great!” And that was confirmed when I remembered one of my favorite quotes:
“Listen to Mustn’ts, child, listen to the Don’ts.
Listen to the Shouldn’ts, the Impossibles, the Won’ts.
Listen to the Never Haves, then listen close to me.
Anything can happen, child, Anything can be.”
-Shel Silverstein
So, I’m off and running. I’m writing, writing, writing. I’m in love again.
Write what you love, dear readers. Life’s too short not to.
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Thank you for your post. I know the feeling when the ideas don’t come together. Angst is a good word. But, glad you found your old post to remind you this happened before and you will find a new idea.
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Thank you for reading and commenting, Patricia. Yes, sometimes I’m amazed at what I’ve blogged and then forgotten. 😉
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Thanks, an excellent post. I am writing my first book at the moment and it is taking me a while, what with everything else in my life deliberately distracting me. I found that by trying to be productive and forcing it out the quality took a considerable dip, it is only when I relax and enjoy what I’m doing that I find that it flows like I’m relating an anecdote.
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Thank you for reading and commenting, Danny. I feel the same; my best writing is never forced. I never saw myself as impatient until I started seriously writing. 😉
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I agree, Linda. We need to please ourselves first, be who we are, write what we love. I once commented to a non-writing friend that I found the novel I was working on difficult. She quickly reminded me that it should be fun. I knew she was right. So I started working on something I wanted to, not what I thought would please someone else. Great post!
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I’m glad you knew yourself well enough to make that change, Laura. Novel writing takes far too much time not to love the work. 🙂
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That’s awesome, Linda. You have had me worried for a while. I’m so glad for you. *big hugs* Ah-ah-ah! Don’t say anything. There’s no need. Just get back to work and write something spectacular. I’ll still be here after you’ve typed: The End. 🙂
-Jimmy
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